now this is something that i truely believe in & nobody can tell me different . if u run yo life by doin good & treatin ppl rye u will be blessed , now if u fck ppl ovuh & jus live in sin bess believe bad will come to u . i pursue the best & never lose my objective in life . my mindset is so crazy half of yal wudn't understand it , but i try to live rye or atleast try . & when i do mess up ( i'm human , we do make mistakes yo ) i gota deal w. the consequences . growing up i was never str8 in da head , i was naive & so mistaken on life ( kinda still am but i try ) , i lived day by day not given a fck bou anybody buh myself . i was selfish & cruel , but i have grown to realize that my life was goin down hill , thang's was so BAD , & i was cruel like that to ppl cuz of how thang's was . . . but i thought to myself what if thang's was goin like that because of my actions?!? u will not get blessed for nothing . u do good & good will come ur way , so i try to humble myself , but at time's i get tempted to go back to my old way's . don't test my cuz i will be tha firss tah bomb yo ass & don't let the pretty face fool yah i int yah average btch , but if u aint doin nun to me i'll letchu be . but hurt me & i qill shut yo sh*t down . now let me stop myself , life's too short . & at the momment i'm liven lavish . i'm a strong individual & i believe that god will deal w. those who do wrong towards me & my loved one's . karma is the realest btch i knoe ( SERIOUSLY ) , don't think u invincible cuz it's only one ( g o d ) & that sho aint you lol . i live day by day curious of fate & why certain thing's happen to certain ppl . one thing i do believe is that if u are doing wrong , & don't wana listen god may not get you , he may do something in front of u to make you realize that u gota change . like check it growing up i was getin kicked outa skoo's , got arrested a couple time's & brought my momma a lot of pain . now did i listen?!? no i was so fckn stupid & didn't realize how much my life & how i was running it affected my mother . she do errythang fo me & i thank god erryday that i still have her in my life . she went through so much for me but it took fo me to go to jail & bump my head to see how my wrong's was affectin the love of my life ( my beautiful mother ) . now i try to stay out of trouble & pay her back for never leaving me & for stickin by me , but my little brother shortly follow . he in so much shyy he ovuh his head . loosin his brother ( REST IN PARADISE TROY DA BOY ) & each friend in & out of jail in the pin , not to mention our familys $ problems he in too deep . & i feel that this is my karma because it hurts me so bad . i hate feelin helpless . i can not do nothing abou this sittuation , ( & i'm a control freakkk so bess blieve this is difficult ) all i can do is sit back & see how much my mom's is hurtin . i feel so lost & confused how can i even expect him to listen when i do the same?!? even though i'm tryna change all i can do is have faith & keep changin & pursue success so he can follow . bein a role model aint easy now i feel my moms pain . my little brother ALL i got mom's taught me to LOVE my blood he my flesh & skin my left hand man he my baby brother , & even though he thank he a grown ass man & piss me the fck off all i can do is step up . YES this is my karma the lord hit me in the worse way , with the one's i love . . . & i rather suffer alone then to go thru this w. damn near my eye's closed , i try . . . to believe & continue to step forward . KARMA is the realest btch i knoe & for those who really sit back & look around , it really get's you in the worse way . . .
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