k a r m a

now this is something that i truely believe in & nobody can tell me different . if u run yo life by doin good & treatin ppl rye u will be blessed , now if u fck ppl ovuh & jus live in sin bess believe bad will come to u . i pursue the best & never lose my objective in life . my mindset is so crazy half of yal wudn't understand it , but i try to live rye or atleast try . & when i do mess up ( i'm human , we do make mistakes yo ) i gota deal w. the consequences . growing up i was never str8 in da head , i was naive & so mistaken on life ( kinda still am but i try ) , i lived day by day not given a fck bou anybody buh myself . i was selfish & cruel , but i have grown to realize that my life was goin down hill , thang's was so BAD , & i was cruel like that to ppl cuz of how thang's was . . . but i thought to myself what if thang's was goin like that because of my actions?!? u will not get blessed for nothing . u do good & good will come ur way , so i try to humble myself , but at time's i get tempted to go back to my old way's . don't test my cuz i will be tha firss tah bomb yo ass & don't let the pretty face fool yah i int yah average btch , but if u aint doin nun to me i'll letchu be . but hurt me & i qill shut yo sh*t down . now let me stop myself , life's too short . & at the momment i'm liven lavish . i'm a strong individual & i believe that god will deal w. those who do wrong towards me & my loved one's . karma is the realest btch i knoe ( SERIOUSLY ) , don't think u invincible cuz it's only one ( g o d ) & that sho aint you lol . i live day by day curious of fate & why certain thing's happen to certain ppl . one thing i do believe is that if u are doing wrong , & don't wana listen god may not get you , he may do something in front of u to make you realize that u gota change . like check it growing up i was getin kicked outa skoo's , got arrested a couple time's & brought my momma a lot of pain . now did i listen?!? no i was so fckn stupid & didn't realize how much my life & how i was running it affected my mother . she do errythang fo me & i thank god erryday that i still have her in my life . she went through so much for me but it took fo me to go to jail & bump my head to see how my wrong's was affectin the love of my life ( my beautiful mother ) . now i try to stay out of trouble & pay her back for never leaving me & for stickin by me , but my little brother shortly follow . he in so much shyy he ovuh his head . loosin his brother ( REST IN PARADISE TROY DA BOY ) & each friend in & out of jail in the pin , not to mention our familys $ problems he in too deep . & i feel that this is my karma because it hurts me so bad . i hate feelin helpless . i can not do nothing abou this sittuation , ( & i'm a control freakkk so bess blieve this is difficult ) all i can do is sit back & see how much my mom's is hurtin . i feel so lost & confused how can i even expect him to listen when i do the same?!? even though i'm tryna change all i can do is have faith & keep changin & pursue success so he can follow . bein a role model aint easy now i feel my moms pain . my little brother ALL i got mom's taught me to LOVE my blood he my flesh & skin my left hand man he my baby brother , & even though he thank he a grown ass man & piss me the fck off all i can do is step up . YES this is my karma the lord hit me in the worse way , with the one's i love . . . & i rather suffer alone then to go thru this w. damn near my eye's closed , i try . . . to believe & continue to step forward . KARMA is the realest btch i knoe & for those who really sit back & look around , it really get's you in the worse way . . .

temptation

& is some buh $ & crime that call's to some individual's , in the mind of a killa so insane . for me , i've always thought of death who can say they havnt? you'd lie if you say no . to relieve my mind body & soul i try to let stress go . my loved one's go back & fourth & as much as i try it follows . death , guilt , life , pleasure & pain . . . in some form the devil tempts you , myself i continue to strive for my success but karma is a bitch . for those who knoe me already comprehend that i am a paranoid individual , i've done so many thang's that i do regret but i continue to try . tempted by sin everyone knoes that actin out is sometimes hard to control . in the mind of a psychopath so many do not understand . " my mind , where did it go cuhz i aint the same " -the jacka . one of my favorite rapper's line's i take to heart . temptation is a mutha fucka & i can honestly say i get tempted by the worse , to turn ur back when it shine's ahead of u? but some thang's jus nevuh change . some of yal prolly readin this & really dont understand but hey . . . is jus a blog , a thought . . . some may agree some may not . i really dgaf ( don't give ah fuck ) excuse my french . live , laugh , love & resist temptations .

unique

cassie`ventura , she is no doubt killen these hoes da game . She's small skinny not thick watever some hatin ass people wana say yal caint say the bitch aint bad. Myself i am pettite & all she is bringen is originallity to this industry & bein nun buh a good role model to so many girls. DIMEPIECE she killt the shoot ( btw i love that brand ) bringing somethang new out that i aint seen befo.Now i wasnt with this cutting her hair thang but she making a statement, that she truly doesn'tgive a fuck bou what anybody gota say she is her own person. To me i believe that she is a strong individual who i wud love to see succeed. I'm a loud person i got an attitude that will kill yah & a personallity a lot do not comprehend. I'm selfish rude & idgaf bou wah any bitch niggah gota say so i love seein icons that jus D O P E . i love fashion & art,different thangs stuff that yal wud prolly look at twice, but i'll make it my own, now here errythang bou her is so inspiring,it's refreshing to see somebody i can actually relate to out on tv lol . I'm insecure & at times hard to control but growing up i've grown into my body & love the way i look & present myself with nun buh cinfidence ( for those who knoe me i'm a cocky muh'fucka & could care less who wana judge my choices & duh me lol hatin ass slut's ) . welcome a boss bitch cuz mos deff i knoe this aint the lass errybody gon see of miss cassie . toodles lol xoxo

profound infatuation

growing up i was always told about fairytales & love, one day knowing i will find my own. now for any real woman reading this with that love comes an astounding chance of insanity. i've loved, and i've been hurt, but to this day i don't understand why so many women have the same problem. We tend to get attached ( now even though some of us may hide it well ) it happens. i was always that girl that after my first love ( wich brought me so much pain ) devoted myself to bein a bitch. I truly did not give a fuck bou any niggah point blank. I look back & i don't have any possotive role model's of true love or even a faithful men. i come from a broken home ( like most of family's today ). My mom loved my dad, he was her world & with out a single thought or consideration of our happy family he left. I was six & sadly could remember everything. I became to hate men seein how bitter mom's got. I played em lied to em & cheated on em, until i fell in love. Now i did not want to put him first,thinkin i was the shit i fucked it up & lost him, but at 14 i didn't knoe much. i went through errythang fo that boy & by the time i was 16 i said fuck it. played around & brpke a lot of heart's i question why. Now my second love was beautiful the sweetest sin of all, i was 16 at the timehe was 18, today i'm 19 & i'm still with my love but it aint been no smooth ride. We have broken up mo then a million times cuz he was unfaithful. when we were sepperated i went through the same ass shyy mackin playin erry niggah cuz i was hurt. I admit my fault cuz i was young but i've grown up & come a long way. I am not afraid to say that i don't have the bess relationship with men but i admit that i continue to try to find peace & love, but i been through hell caint blame a girl fo messin up here & their i'm still young & learnin . xoxo